12th - 14th August 2011

12th-14th August - We left Melaka and went back to KL to stay for a night before flying off to Brunei the next day.

On that day, we arrived back to KL after lunch time. We had a rest and then we went out for a nice meal at Chilis. We ordered a fajitas. It was so delicious and it was enough for the 2 of us. I think after getting to know me, he had changed the amount he eat which is good as I feel that we tend to overeat very often. But feeling a little munchy, we ordered a basket of fries to end our meal.

The next day, we went to mamak for breakfast before heading to the airport to leave for Brunei. I was getting a little bit sad as I know that he is leaving back to UK after a night stay in Brunei. But I was trying to control my emotions a lot.

We didn't do anything in Brunei. We stayed in the hotel and only went out for dinner. We had some kind of italian buffet which was quite good. I ate too much and I remembered that I wasn't feeling very good after the meal.

Then the next day came and I know it's time to say goodbye. My flight back to KL was about 4pm while his flight back to UK was about 8pm. In the morning, we hung out at Coffee bean till noon, had our lunch at the food court, and left to airport. At the airport, it was just so hard to say goodbye again as I had such a wonderful 2 weeks with him. It was truly a great holiday. Can't wait for the next one again. :)

11th August 2011

11th Aug - Woke up early in the morning to have breakfast in the hotel. There were quite a variety of local breakfast like fried noodles and nasi lemak. Nothing exceptional but good enough. After that, it's time to explore around Melaka.

We didn't take many pictures. I think we just got lazier towards the end of the holiday. Hehe... Well, here are some pictures to share.

After walking for about few hours, it's time to have lunch. I brought him to this famous place that serves Chicken Rice Balls. This dish is popular in Melaka. It's an interesting concept but I still prefer my normal chicken rice.





Then it's dessert time. Yummy... We had the famous Cendol at Jonker 88. It was nice but I felt that the gula melaka was a bit too thick and sweet. I think it's the Melaka style of making cendol. Both of us felt that the one we had in Penang tasted much better.



After all that, we walked back to our hotel. Only then I realised that I got tan lines. Well, kinda expected as we started our journey from 10am and only got back to the hotel about 4pm. We were under the sun most of the time. We were so tired after all the walking and had a nap before heading out for dinner. We had the same thing for dinner which was tandoori and naan. Yummy. But this time we ordered too much and I was stuffed and felt so uncomfortable after the meal. I was kinda full by the time we finish our meal but we thought we would be missing this place dearly since we won't be coming here again for probably another few more years. So we ordered another naan. By the time the food came, my brain told me that I was full and I should stopped but I had at least another 1/3 of it. That's a bad decision. I had difficulty walking back to our hotel after that. And no dessert for that night as I couldn't put anymore in my tummy. :(

10th August 2011

10 Aug - It's time to say goodbye to Penang. I was already missing Penang when I woke up in the morning. Actually I was missing the hotel. I enjoyed my stay at this hotel so much besides the fact that the staff was kinda annoying.

We had breakfast at the hotel. It's part of the package to have breakfast on the last day of our stay. The best part for me of staying in a hotel is to have a wide spread of selection of breakfast mainly because they have my favourite cereals, toast, eggs, waffles, muffins, cheeses, hams... But I noticed nowadays I do get disappointed a lot with the breakfast served in the hotel. The Hard Rock hotel breakfast were kinda ordinary and I was kinda ok with it.

After that, we packed our stuff and left. Just before we left, we took a few more pictures.




I notice it's hard to convince him to take pictures with me. He somehow doesn't like to camwhore with me. That do make me wonder whether he doesn't enjoy camwhore generally or just with me. ;p



We then left the hotel at about 10.30am and started our road trip down south from Penang to Melaka. The first half of the trip was fine. I think I only started feeling sleepy after driving for about an hour or 2. It must be the heavy breakfast I had whereby all the blood had gone to my tummy and therefore my brain is shutting down. lol... When we were reaching KL, it rained heavily. it was so heavy that it became so difficult to drive. I had to drive at 60km/h and I dare not follow to closely to the car in front. That long stretch of journey from KL-Melaka was tiring. It took me about 4 hours to reach Melaka when usually it only takes about 2-3 hours to arrive there.

Anyway, we got to Melaka at about 5pm. And we managed to find our hotel easily though we did had a little problem initially. It was a pretty decent hotel and we kinda like it. The staff were really helpful and friendly. We checked in, rest a little while before we headed out to have dinner. We went to this famous place which serves the Best Tandoori and Naan probably in Malaysia. Yeap, the best in Malaysia. I remembered having this last time about few years ago and fell in love with it. I never got the chance to be back here again.

We walked to that place which probably took us about 20 mins. I was getting hungry and grumpy and wanted to eat. Finally we reached there and we ordered a tandoori and Garlic Double Cheese Naan. Yummy... He definitely enjoyed it so much. And this Tandoor and Naan is way much better than the one we had at Kayu.







We also ordered Roti Canai. Their Roti ain't that great. They also have really nice curry dishes but we didn't try it. They serve really good Northern Indian type of dishes.



After a heavy meal, we walked around Jonker Street for a while to digest our heavy meal. I was no longer grumpy then. lol... Not many shops were opened though. Jonker Street is a happening place only on weekends and they have loads of shops selling all kinds of things. And after that, it's time to get back to rest.

Maybe...

Wondering how much he cares, how much he loves me and how much he understands me. Somehow I don't feel that he does very much anymore and neither does he try to understand me. The longer we are apart, the lesser love I feel from him. Maybe there is someone else, or maybe the most common excuse men always give which is that they are busy, or maybe he just no longer appreciates having me anymore or maybe I'm just asking for too much. The whole distant relationship makes me wonder whether if I really am by his side, will he be there for me if I needed him and will he prioritise me first. I never felt that I was the main priority in his life even from the beginning of this whole relationship. I always felt secondary to him comparing to everything else.

I know that I love him so much that I am willing to make lots of sacrifices. I love him too much to let him go but I'm just afraid that I'm going to be with a man who will take me for granted, who will not put me first in his life, who will never be there for me.

It hurts so much right now. Maybe he will never be there for me and maybe I'm not worth it for him. Maybe...

No Way Out

I thought it's time to have a little break about my holiday. I just wanted to describe the feeling I'm having right now. It's 10pm and I should be sleeping by now. I have to be awake by 4am tomorrow for a race. I somehow don't feel like doing it. Well, I guess mainly nobody will be going for the race with me and the only time I ever went to do a race on my own was during the Dublin Marathon. Other than that, I always had someone to accompany me. Oh well, I guess there is always first time for everything.

I think emotionally I'm affected due to some personal matters. I do wonder how long it will take for me to recover. I haven't been feeling that good and had been forcing myself to put an alright look and as usual hiding myself so that i can be myself. I'm just so stressed up not being able to settle this emotional issue all these years. And I'm sort of sick again because of that. And I do wonder whether this will follow me forever. I struggled and fought hard to overcome all this and I did it. But now it all just came back so easily. I felt like I'm in a maze. I'm going round and round and round and just when I thought that I had found the way out, I'm back in the same path again. I can never get out from this maze. I wish someone will guide me, walk with me, lift me up, remove the fear in me and make me feel that everything is going to be ok. But there isn't that someone. I have to do it on my own if i want to get out. Just hope that I can keep being strong.

Good night world. Hopefully when I wake up from my sleep, I will feel the positive energy in life again.

9th August 2011

9th August - It's the 3rd day in Penang and I'm just loving it so much. Just hanging around in the beautiful hotel, sitting by the pool, enjoying the beautiful beach and just lazing around doing nothing with my other half is just what I call a holiday.

We had breakfast in bed again and went to the pool to swim. We did walked by the beach. I just love holidays with nice beaches. It's just so relaxing and I can't wait to go to beaches in the Europe country. Or maybe in future if there is a chance I want to go to Mauritius or Maldives. *hint hint* :)

And we got back to the room and watched a movie, Hatchiko, A Dog's Story, and that made me cry. Oh, just don't enjoy crying in front of him but he said that I cry easily. But it was truly a touching story and it's just amazing how loyal a dog could be. I think I picked a rubbish movie after that. It was something to do with the Penguins from Madasgascar. Well, I like Mort and it is just hilarious seeing how silly he is and how annoying and cute he can be at the same time. At least this wasn't as bad as the movie he picked which I couldn't even remember the name. I remembered him finishing up the movie while I fell asleep during the first 10 mins of the movie. 'lol' Yes, that was how boring it was. It was the kid who went into the jungle and met some weird big hairy bear looking friends. :)

Then it was dinner time. We went for dinner at the Starville Restaurant. Since it's Ramadhan month, they have the Ramadhan Buka Puasa buffet dinner. I didn't take any pictures as we were just excited about eating only. The food weren't that great but it was a great opportunity for him to taste a lot of the local cuisine food. I was kinda disappointed as I was expecting a lot more for the Malay local dessert especially the kuih talam. But they didn't have it unfortunately. :(

We were definitely stuffed after that. Somehow buffet is never a good idea and we tend to overeat easily. I was having difficulty walking as well. We did walked a bit around the hotel and took some pictures.

And finally we went back up to the room and spent our last night in this hotel together. The only thing I didn't like about this hotel was the staff which I find weren't too friendly. But other than that, everything was great. I'm already missing being in Penang with him very much.

8th August 2011

8th August - I'm getting slower in updating my blog. I should have updated it earlier so that the holiday is still fresh in my memory. Anyway, I can still remember most of it but just the little details I may have forgotten. hehe...

We had breakfast in the room - coffee and some buns which I bought. We just hung around in the room for a bit and then later we went to the pool to have a swim. It was amazing. It had been a while since I last swam but it was fun to be swimming with him. He didn't swim much and sat by the pool instead.

After that, it was lunch time. We decided to go to Hard Rock Cafe to feed our starving tummy. The place is nicely decorated with its walls covered with rock and roll memorabilia. It's quite a nice place to dine in but we didn't quite like the staff who were serving us there. It seems like they were not really friendly and they seem to be impatient when serving us. We felt pretty uncomfortable and definitely wasn't the kind of services we were expecting from such place.

I can't remember the exact name of the dish we had and I think it's called Pulled Lamb Burger. It tasted really good and unlike the typical American Cheese Burger which we can always get from any American Restaurant. The lamb was so tender and juicy and it tasted amazingly good when u have a bite of it. I love the fries and beans as well. The BBQ beans were tasty.

Someone is getting impatient to have his first bite of his burger.

We shared that burger and it was just nice for the 2 of us. It's always nice to share food so that we don't overeat. We had been sharing food since our first meal we had together. I remembered asking him whether he mind sharing food as I would like to try different types of food. He of course said he didn't mind since he already liked me then. :)

After lunch, we went back to our rooms feeling sleepy. We took a nap. And by the time we woke up it was already in the evening. We had one of the most amazing view from our balcony during the sunset. It was just amazing standing there watching it with my other half. :)

Then it's dinner time. Yeah, it's foodie time.. We went back to the same food court place. I ordered something else instead this time. We had some noodles which I can't remember what it was and Roti Canai. Both of it wasn't good. :( I was just so disappointed.

And we went back to our rooms to snack on crisps and biscuits instead and watch movie together. That definitely compensated the lousy dinner. :)