'How Do You Know' proposal quote

I watched the movie 'How do you know' in the bus on the way down to Singapore. And it gave me tears when I heard this proposal. It's probably the best proposal I ever heard coz he loves not just her, but the whole of her. It's probably the best love any woman can get.


Al: I don't want you to think that the reason we're not married is because I think anything of anyone else. It's because I'm 40 years old and I'm a failure.
Annie: I will kill you, you talk like that.
Al: I'll get work again, I know. I won't have seniority because of what happened. I don't wanna get sidetracked. The reason that I never talked marriage to you is because I couldn't stand to see you, the princess of worry weighted down by me and my limited prospects. Because I get your worry, Annie. I know a lot of people think that's a bad thing about you. But I know that it's because you have a great big heart, and I love you for it! You know? And then... I started to worry, all right? About what would happen to you... and this little hulk. If you guys wound up with someone who thought that your worry was you know...
Annie: Neurotic?
Al: Right, yeah. Somebody who didn't get you. Who wanted you to feel bad about yourself. Wanted to make you be more normal or wanted you to change...or like yourself more. Who didn't love all of it, Annie. Who didn't wanna leave great enough alone. And I thought that I.... I could do that for you. That could be a legitimate function for me in your life. So that allows me... [takes out ring and kneels on the ground]
Annie: Oh, my God!
Al: to propose to you that we get married. I wanna marry you.

Leaving soon...

Another day has gone by and the days are getting nearer that I will be leaving this place, a home I once called, for good. It's a strange feeling as I had actively participated in the creation of this place. And I'm letting it all go.

Staring into the study room, it's stacked with boxes which I'm moving out. I realised that I hardly use this room. And there was this unpleasant feeling that I'm actually missing this room a lot. Maybe because I know I will never get a chance to use it again. Then there is the guest room. I never had any guest over but it's a room always filled with boxes storing all the things that I probably will never use and also the room which I used to do ironing.

I don't know what's wrong but I'm just looking around and began to have a heavy heart coz I knew I will be saying goodbye to everything here soon, real soon.

I'm building a new life elsewhere and leaving real soon. I gave everything up that I had built here, my car, my house, my career... It was a good thing that I was never close to my family which meant I have one less attachment to this place. But no matter what, the fear of leaving for good is always there. But looking back, even though I had those things, I was never once truly happy and in fact I never love myself at all. I was blinded by everything around me that I had forgotten the meaning of life and forgotten what it was to live a life. I was just fulfilling other people's expectations, not just my family but what is considered a norm to the society and was doing things that I never wanted. Probably I never knew what it was to live a life but I learnt so much in the last 18 months that I realised it was so easy to live a life and the best thing was I love myself more than I ever had. With all these in mind, I think it gave me lots of strength to overcome the rest of the fears I have.

Looking at all these I know that I won't regret my decision no matter what happens because I knew that at least I had live my life and I was once truly happy and that's much more than anyone could ask for.

February 29 - Leap Year

February 29. I think to most people it's just another day and no one would look at today twice and think about how special the day is. I think it's the first time whereby I really looked into February 29 differently. Every year, I'm just like most people wouldn't even feel that the day is anything special but this year I was really excited about it and wished that I'm celebrating today with my other half.

One of the reasons why I decided to visit Ireland was because of the movie Leap Year. I fell in love with Ireland after watching the movie and decided that it will be a place for me to visit. And that's how I got to meet Alan. Ever since then, I felt that Leap Year is something special to me. Afterall, it only comes once every 4 years. In fact one should treasure it as that could also mean that we get extra 24 hours this year. Isn't life is so great! I guess all these little things makes one love life a lot more. And I definitely love my life a lot more every since I met Alan.

There is also this Irish tradition whereby the women are allowed to propose to the guy that they love on February 29. I remembered Alan got asked whether I would propose to him today if he hadn't propose to me yet. 'lol' I felt that I probably wouldn't but I probably would be wondering all these time why he hadn't propose to me and maybe might force him into proposing to me before February 29. Yeah, I do sound a little desperate. But then again, it's hard to be in a long distance relationship. I can't wait to be with him every single day.

Anyway, as I love today so much, I think I might do a little something special for Alan. Haven't figured out yet but I think I will get it sorted by the end of the day. So hope everyone have a great February 29.

Why am I awake now???

It's 3.00am now. I'm still wide awake. I should be going to sleep but I couldn't. Or maybe there is just too much in my mind. I had been back in Malaysia for more than 2 weeks. I thought I would managed well being back here but apparently I was wrong. I should have known better since it's the same thing every time I'm back here.

I'm missing him a lot. I just can't wait to be with him. It's tough to be so far away from him and i guess now is the time i wish he is next to me. I wish I could pour my feelings to him, telling him how sad I am right now, crying out loud on his shoulder, but I couldn't. It is even worse knowing that he isn't feeling well and I should be there to support him instead.

Somehow it's so strange that the home I was growing up now is a place that treats me like stranger. Family that was supposed to love me unconditionally all seemed so distant to me. But thinking positively, this means I can leave with lesser attachment towards this place which was once called home.

12th - 14th August 2011

12th-14th August - We left Melaka and went back to KL to stay for a night before flying off to Brunei the next day.

On that day, we arrived back to KL after lunch time. We had a rest and then we went out for a nice meal at Chilis. We ordered a fajitas. It was so delicious and it was enough for the 2 of us. I think after getting to know me, he had changed the amount he eat which is good as I feel that we tend to overeat very often. But feeling a little munchy, we ordered a basket of fries to end our meal.

The next day, we went to mamak for breakfast before heading to the airport to leave for Brunei. I was getting a little bit sad as I know that he is leaving back to UK after a night stay in Brunei. But I was trying to control my emotions a lot.

We didn't do anything in Brunei. We stayed in the hotel and only went out for dinner. We had some kind of italian buffet which was quite good. I ate too much and I remembered that I wasn't feeling very good after the meal.

Then the next day came and I know it's time to say goodbye. My flight back to KL was about 4pm while his flight back to UK was about 8pm. In the morning, we hung out at Coffee bean till noon, had our lunch at the food court, and left to airport. At the airport, it was just so hard to say goodbye again as I had such a wonderful 2 weeks with him. It was truly a great holiday. Can't wait for the next one again. :)

11th August 2011

11th Aug - Woke up early in the morning to have breakfast in the hotel. There were quite a variety of local breakfast like fried noodles and nasi lemak. Nothing exceptional but good enough. After that, it's time to explore around Melaka.

We didn't take many pictures. I think we just got lazier towards the end of the holiday. Hehe... Well, here are some pictures to share.

After walking for about few hours, it's time to have lunch. I brought him to this famous place that serves Chicken Rice Balls. This dish is popular in Melaka. It's an interesting concept but I still prefer my normal chicken rice.





Then it's dessert time. Yummy... We had the famous Cendol at Jonker 88. It was nice but I felt that the gula melaka was a bit too thick and sweet. I think it's the Melaka style of making cendol. Both of us felt that the one we had in Penang tasted much better.



After all that, we walked back to our hotel. Only then I realised that I got tan lines. Well, kinda expected as we started our journey from 10am and only got back to the hotel about 4pm. We were under the sun most of the time. We were so tired after all the walking and had a nap before heading out for dinner. We had the same thing for dinner which was tandoori and naan. Yummy. But this time we ordered too much and I was stuffed and felt so uncomfortable after the meal. I was kinda full by the time we finish our meal but we thought we would be missing this place dearly since we won't be coming here again for probably another few more years. So we ordered another naan. By the time the food came, my brain told me that I was full and I should stopped but I had at least another 1/3 of it. That's a bad decision. I had difficulty walking back to our hotel after that. And no dessert for that night as I couldn't put anymore in my tummy. :(

10th August 2011

10 Aug - It's time to say goodbye to Penang. I was already missing Penang when I woke up in the morning. Actually I was missing the hotel. I enjoyed my stay at this hotel so much besides the fact that the staff was kinda annoying.

We had breakfast at the hotel. It's part of the package to have breakfast on the last day of our stay. The best part for me of staying in a hotel is to have a wide spread of selection of breakfast mainly because they have my favourite cereals, toast, eggs, waffles, muffins, cheeses, hams... But I noticed nowadays I do get disappointed a lot with the breakfast served in the hotel. The Hard Rock hotel breakfast were kinda ordinary and I was kinda ok with it.

After that, we packed our stuff and left. Just before we left, we took a few more pictures.




I notice it's hard to convince him to take pictures with me. He somehow doesn't like to camwhore with me. That do make me wonder whether he doesn't enjoy camwhore generally or just with me. ;p



We then left the hotel at about 10.30am and started our road trip down south from Penang to Melaka. The first half of the trip was fine. I think I only started feeling sleepy after driving for about an hour or 2. It must be the heavy breakfast I had whereby all the blood had gone to my tummy and therefore my brain is shutting down. lol... When we were reaching KL, it rained heavily. it was so heavy that it became so difficult to drive. I had to drive at 60km/h and I dare not follow to closely to the car in front. That long stretch of journey from KL-Melaka was tiring. It took me about 4 hours to reach Melaka when usually it only takes about 2-3 hours to arrive there.

Anyway, we got to Melaka at about 5pm. And we managed to find our hotel easily though we did had a little problem initially. It was a pretty decent hotel and we kinda like it. The staff were really helpful and friendly. We checked in, rest a little while before we headed out to have dinner. We went to this famous place which serves the Best Tandoori and Naan probably in Malaysia. Yeap, the best in Malaysia. I remembered having this last time about few years ago and fell in love with it. I never got the chance to be back here again.

We walked to that place which probably took us about 20 mins. I was getting hungry and grumpy and wanted to eat. Finally we reached there and we ordered a tandoori and Garlic Double Cheese Naan. Yummy... He definitely enjoyed it so much. And this Tandoor and Naan is way much better than the one we had at Kayu.







We also ordered Roti Canai. Their Roti ain't that great. They also have really nice curry dishes but we didn't try it. They serve really good Northern Indian type of dishes.



After a heavy meal, we walked around Jonker Street for a while to digest our heavy meal. I was no longer grumpy then. lol... Not many shops were opened though. Jonker Street is a happening place only on weekends and they have loads of shops selling all kinds of things. And after that, it's time to get back to rest.